ta bole tydo dohh ! :'(

i gave you the world , gave you my all .

i thought you deserved summer , spring and fall .

guess it was too much !

and all that i wanted is for you to stay ,

i apologize for all my mistakes .

but yet you still ignored me this cold winter day :'(

i can't beleive i'm lying here ,

with nothing but the whitered rose petals on the floor .

and torn up memories of me lying in your chest ,

a broken heart .

now i'm so miserable !

baby please , would you say what make you leave ?

would you tell me so i'll noe .

and i wont do it anymore ,

what's on your mind , tell me .

please believe .

i'll do all you ask of me .

if you tell me .

i'm beggin you please .

i don't mean ..

to sound like i need you .

but you have become much a part of me .

my heart doesn't beat .

got no words to speak ..

whenever you're not here .

whenever you leave ..

cant explain the feelings !

but its so much like walking thru the darkness ,

with nothing foe light !

i'm prayin you'll see .

what i really need !

i'm prayin you'll come back to me !

i'm tryin my hardest to be the best i can foe you .

you got , so much more in love with you !

i noe it if i can just get you to show it .

maybe we'd start over again ..

you'd see the other side of me .

you'd see a better side of me ,

i noe that you noe it , babe i cant take no more !

i miss you biyy :'(

:: i'm LONELY :'(

• the words i'm saying ryte now , i dont noe if they'll hurt you . they'll probably will make you hate me foreva .
• saying that i'm not the same as i used to be , its not completely untrue .
• this changed me is a stranger to myself as well .
• you are so kind but thats the way you are but ..
• i dont noe !
• WHY AM I LIKE THIS ?
• we were so in love .
• and you're here now but ..
• i dont noe , i want to find myself new .
• baby i'm sorry , even when i'm with you ..
• I'M LONELY .
• please forgive this horrible person i am .
• i'm sorry , this is your and my story .
• i must be not worthy of this thing called love , even though i'm by your side .
• i'm so lonely :'(
• you didn't even try to reach me , find me .
• i feel like a stranger one .
• it seems i've already been prepared for long ago for our ......
• i really wanted to treat you well , out of all the time .
• WHY IS IT WHEN I'M CONFRONTED BY LOVE ?
• i am shrinking away and i'm lonely endlessly .
• these night is so lonely .
• i can't take anymore ..
• i see thru , you are happy without me ..
• good bye .

: i am .

i am ME , in all the world , there is no one else exactly like me .
everything that comes out of me is authentically mine , becuz i alone choose it --> i own everything about ME , my body , my feelings , my mouth , my voice , all my actions , whether they be to others or myself .
i own my fantasies , my dreams , my hopes , my fears .
i own my triumphs and succesess , all my failures and mistakes , becuz i own all of me .
i can become intimately acquainted wif me , by so doing .. i can love me and be friendly wif all my parts .
i noe they are aspects about myself that puzzle meand other aspects that i do not noe .
BUT as long as i friendly n loving to myself , i can courageouslyand hopefully look foe solutions to the puzzles and find out more about me .
however i look n sound , whatever i said n do , n whatare i think n feel at a given moment in time is authentically me .
if later some parts of how i looked , sounded , thought n felt turn out to be unfitting .
i can discard that which is unfitting , keep the rest n invent something new foe that which i discarded .
i can see , hear , feel , think , say n do .
i have the tools to survive , to be close to others , to be productive n to make sense n order out of the world of peoples n things outside of me .
i own ME , n therefore i can engineer ME . i am me n i AM okayy :)