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: hehhh ! lama gilaa aku ta update blog ..

elehh , aku sehad jea ..

uollz sehad ? rasa bosan jea hadap lappy neyh lama2' ..

heyy , 17 neyh birthday aku larr .. na hadiah :(

hahahha !! muka ta malu ;p

umur aku ?

lol .. ta tahu ?

na tahu ?

hmm , cuba agak , agak2' berapa umur aku ..

hahah .. 18 dehh after birthday aku 17th oct neyh ..

da tua daa .. haihh .

rasa cam malas na bdikari ..

haisyyy .. anak manja lah al-maklum .

hoho ..

aku neyh manja gilaa .

mengharap .. sumpah manja gilaaa .

bf aku irman hakim jea larr tahu manja aku cam mana ken biyy :)

sikit2' biyy , sikitt2' biyyy ..

haha .

penat larr type panjang okay larr yea ..

kbhooiiiii .. :)

yunx .. sayang at kaw dok ! sumpah aku !!

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ta bole tydo dohh ! :'(

i gave you the world , gave you my all .

i thought you deserved summer , spring and fall .

guess it was too much !

and all that i wanted is for you to stay ,

i apologize for all my mistakes .

but yet you still ignored me this cold winter day :'(

i can't beleive i'm lying here ,

with nothing but the whitered rose petals on the floor .

and torn up memories of me lying in your chest ,

a broken heart .

now i'm so miserable !

baby please , would you say what make you leave ?

would you tell me so i'll noe .

and i wont do it anymore ,

what's on your mind , tell me .

please believe .

i'll do all you ask of me .

if you tell me .

i'm beggin you please .

i don't mean ..

to sound like i need you .

but you have become much a part of me .

my heart doesn't beat .

got no words to speak ..

whenever you're not here .

whenever you leave ..

cant explain the feelings !

but its so much like walking thru the darkness ,

with nothing foe light !

i'm prayin you'll see .

what i really need !

i'm prayin you'll come back to me !

i'm tryin my hardest to be the best i can foe you .

you got , so much more in love with you !

i noe it if i can just get you to show it .

maybe we'd start over again ..

you'd see the other side of me .

you'd see a better side of me ,

i noe that you noe it , babe i cant take no more !

i miss you biyy :'(

:: i'm LONELY :'(

• the words i'm saying ryte now , i dont noe if they'll hurt you . they'll probably will make you hate me foreva .
• saying that i'm not the same as i used to be , its not completely untrue .
• this changed me is a stranger to myself as well .
• you are so kind but thats the way you are but ..
• i dont noe !
• WHY AM I LIKE THIS ?
• we were so in love .
• and you're here now but ..
• i dont noe , i want to find myself new .
• baby i'm sorry , even when i'm with you ..
• I'M LONELY .
• please forgive this horrible person i am .
• i'm sorry , this is your and my story .
• i must be not worthy of this thing called love , even though i'm by your side .
• i'm so lonely :'(
• you didn't even try to reach me , find me .
• i feel like a stranger one .
• it seems i've already been prepared for long ago for our ......
• i really wanted to treat you well , out of all the time .
• WHY IS IT WHEN I'M CONFRONTED BY LOVE ?
• i am shrinking away and i'm lonely endlessly .
• these night is so lonely .
• i can't take anymore ..
• i see thru , you are happy without me ..
• good bye .

: i am .

i am ME , in all the world , there is no one else exactly like me .
everything that comes out of me is authentically mine , becuz i alone choose it --> i own everything about ME , my body , my feelings , my mouth , my voice , all my actions , whether they be to others or myself .
i own my fantasies , my dreams , my hopes , my fears .
i own my triumphs and succesess , all my failures and mistakes , becuz i own all of me .
i can become intimately acquainted wif me , by so doing .. i can love me and be friendly wif all my parts .
i noe they are aspects about myself that puzzle meand other aspects that i do not noe .
BUT as long as i friendly n loving to myself , i can courageouslyand hopefully look foe solutions to the puzzles and find out more about me .
however i look n sound , whatever i said n do , n whatare i think n feel at a given moment in time is authentically me .
if later some parts of how i looked , sounded , thought n felt turn out to be unfitting .
i can discard that which is unfitting , keep the rest n invent something new foe that which i discarded .
i can see , hear , feel , think , say n do .
i have the tools to survive , to be close to others , to be productive n to make sense n order out of the world of peoples n things outside of me .
i own ME , n therefore i can engineer ME . i am me n i AM okayy :)

sO thErE is ThiS bOy , aNd ThE wAy hE LAuGhS mAkEs mE SMiLE ,
aNd WhEn hE tALks , hE GivEs mE bUttErfLiEs ..
jUst EvERythiNG AbOUt him mAkEs mE hAppy :)
LOVE ,
WhEn yOu StArt a tESt in SchOoL ,
aNd rEaLizE yOu cAn't cOncENtrAtE ,
bEcOz Of him ..
fOe OnCE in My LifE ,
i dOn't hAvE tO try tO bE hAppy ..
WhEn i'm with him ,
it jUSt hApEns ..
p/s ; cAn i bE thE rEasOn fOe thE SmiLE On yOur fAcE ??? :)
dOnt tELL mE yOu LOvE mE untiLL yOu prOvE et ..
cOz yOu mAkE mE LaUGh mOrE ThAn aNyOnE eLsE ..

LOVE isn't FiNDinG sOmEOnE yOu cAn LIVE with ,
it's FiNDinG sOmEOnE yOu cAn't LIVE withOut ..
biE , i SWEAR .
nO OnE LOVES yOu LikE I DO !!
it's true ..
it's hard to wait around foe something thati noe that never happen but it's even harder to give up ecspecially when it's everything i ever wanted .
i dont think you realize how easily you make me smile ..
yet , i will do everything just to be hiss everything .
theres always that one special person that no matter what they do to me ,
i cant let him go !
yOu ArE 1 in a MiLi000000000nnn ..
that's why i love you , yess i do .

i love him .

: HELLO MY SWEET AND PRECIOUS ONE :) ,
   i just got the urge to say i love you more than life itself foe you're perfect in every way :D
    
:: i may not get to see you as often as i like ,
    i may not get to hold you in my arms thru the nyte ,
    but deep inside my heart ..
    i TRULY noe YOU'RE the ONE that I LOVE - AND - CAN'T let you GO !
    i've never love someone the way that i love you ,
    i've never noe'n someone so well and still felt there were so much left to discover .
    never been able to say i love you ,
    and have it mean something beautifully different every time ,
    i've never noe'n someone i could spend hours with and still long for time to share .
   never felt so close to someone in so many ways .


   missing you is'a part of loving you .
   if you're never apart ,
   then you'll never noe .
   how strong your love really is ..
   LOVE :: we THINK about it . DREAM about it . lose sleep WORRYING about it ..
   when we dont have it , we SEARCH for it and when we DISCOVER it , we DON'T NOE what to do with it .
   i fear LOSING it , you ! you are my SOURCE of PLEASURE and PAIN .
   but i cant predict which it will be from ONE moment to the NEXT .
   it's a short word = easy to spell , dificult to defline .
   and impossible to live without HIM .
   p/s : if you love me like you told me ,
           please be carefull with my heart .
           you can take it ,
           just dont break it .
           or my world will fall apart .
           i love you so deeply , i love you so much .
           i love the sound of your voice ,
           and the way that we touch .
           i love your warm smile and your kind , thoughtful way ..
           the joy n sad that you bring in my life everyday .
           i love you today , as i have from the start .
           and i'll love you forever wiyh all of my heart .
           i'll love you forever ,
           i'll like you foe always .
           as long as i'm living as your bby , i'll be .
           i cant put a PRICE TAG on love .
           but i can on all it's accesories . :)
   ---> love is when i miss him , even before he leaves . when i could listen to him talk all night and never get tired of  hearing his voice ..
           if i lost in your love i donnoe wat to do ,
           all i noe is that i cant stop thinking of you ;
           so sorry foe hurting you in the past ,
           i wish i can take it all back ;
           i'm only wondering how i can make it up to you ,
           if there's a way ,
           i hope you would show me and let me ;
           but if you dont want to ,
           i just hope you dont foeget me :(
           
  :: i thought i see you stare , diu noe i think you're cute ? :))
      i like the look you bare , are the eyes deceiving me when i see you standing there ?
      it takes 3 sec to say ILY , 3 hours to explain it , and 1 lifetime to prove it .


im not supposed to love you , im not supposed to care .
im not supposed to live my life wishin you were there .
im not supposed to wonder where you are n watchu do .
im sorry i cant help myself ,
coz im in love witchu ..
and biee ~
the best things in my life are unseen ,
thats why i close my eyes when we kiss , cry and dream ! ;(